Kelsea Ballerini On Promoting Her New Album While Going Through A Divorce: ‘I Feel Like A Sociopath’

Kelsea Ballerini is currently balancing the reality of life and the logistics of her career. She’s been working hard to celebrate her new record, Subject To Change and although her bubbly personality has been shining through, there is more happening behind the scenes as she is in the process of a divorce from her husband Morgan Evans. 

Ballerini caught up wtih Today’s Country Radio with Kelleigh Bannen on Apple Music Country to share what it’s really been like to promote her project during this difficult time. 

“I have a really beautiful life. I’m so lucky. I’m so lucky. I have my dream career. I get to write about my life, which is so therapeutic, and then, share it with people. And they like it, for the most part. What a life. And there’s always more going on than that. And sometimes while promoting this album, I feel like a sociopath, because I’m presenting this thing I’m really proud of and I’m really happy to be in this chapter and putting this record out. But at the same time, there’s a lot going on in my life.”

She added, “So yeah, when I really look at it and I step back, which I’m doing a lot of recently, I’m like, I talk about this album, about it being a juxtaposition. And I’m in such a juxtaposition while putting it out. So of course, it’s like this.”

View this post on Instagram

A post shared by Kelsea Ballerini (@kelseaballerini)

The news of their split broke on Monday (Aug. 29) when Ballerini was the first to give her thoughts on the “deeply, difficult decision.” 

“Friends, I’ve always tried my best to share my life with you in a real and vulnerable way, while also protecting layers of my personal life as they unfold. This is now public record so I wanted you to hear from me directly that I am going through a divorce,” she wrote. 

Evans followed with his own statement saying, “I am very sad to confirm that after almost five years of marriage, Kelsea and I are parting ways. I wish it were otherwise, but sadly it is not.”

As a newly 29-year-old going through this life-changing experience, Ballerini is just “DOIN’ MY BEST,” as she sings about in one of the tracks off the project that once again, shows the singer in her truest form.  

“‘DOIN’ MY BEST’ is a celebration of taking ownership of cringe. Because I think, when you’re just like, ‘These are the things in my life that you’ve seen that are chaotic. And I understand they’re chaotic. Trust me, I’m experiencing it. It’s more chaotic than you’ll ever know, but here it is. And I’m truly just doing my best.’ And I think just taking ownership of that and just going, ‘I’m a human. Here it is.’ There’s something that it was so freeing writing that song,” she shared during the interview.

The album title reflects how uncontrollable things are in life and Ballerini’s empowering decision to “take the power away from it.” She is encouraging herself and her listeners to not be so afraid of the change that may come. 

“I loved the idea of [change] being such a relatable universal topic. But for me, I’ve always been really scared of change, because it’s been something that has influenced my life in ways that I don’t always love or that I’m not always ready for. And I liked the idea of making a record, and especially starting a record, with a song that says like, ‘But what if we take the power away from change? And what if we go, ‘it’s inevitable. It’s going to happen?’ And whether it’s bad change or good change, it’s meant to happen for me in my life and where I’m supposed to get to,’” she explained before adding, “And when you take the power away from it and the fear of change away from it and you just open your arms up to it, you start living.

Following the release of Subject To Change, Kelsea Ballerini appeared on Good Morning America. She is set to launch her 10-city Heartfirst tour on Sept. 24 in New York, NY.