Carrie Underwood Recalls Her Conversation with God After Suffering Three Miscarriages

“Okay, I’m kind of giving up a little bit…”

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Lauren Jo Black

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June 20, 2019

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Carrie Underwood; Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images for CMT

Carrie Underwood is on top of the world. She recently continued her reign as the most-awarded artist in CMT Music Awards history, she’s in the midst of a massive headlining tour, her summertime smash, “Southbound,” is making its way up the charts and she has a loving husband and two beautiful sons traveling the road with her.

While her life couldn’t be more ideal at the moment, nearly two years ago, she faced a difficult time when she not only suffered substantial injuries after taking a fall outside of her home, she also experienced three miscarriages in less than two years.

The superstar opens up about her struggles conceiving, her family life and her faith in the latest issue of People.

“I put a lot of stress on myself — I feel like a lot of moms do, a lot of women do,” she admits to the publication, insisting, “the best moments in my life are when I say, ‘Hey, I can’t control everything, and that’s okay. God is in control.’”

After three unsuccessful pregnancies, Underwood was beginning to question everything.

“Of course you wonder if it’s you, what am I doing wrong, or what have I done wrong,” she says. “I remember having conversations with Mike trying to make sense of it all.”

As she tried to grapple with what was happening, she turned to God for guidance.

“I’ve always wanted to be a good daughter to my parents but also to God and not complain, because we are beyond blessed,” she shares. “I get to do what I love, I have an incredible family. I have Mike, I have Isaiah, I have great parents. I have all of these amazing people around me, and I don’t want to complain, ever.”

She adds, “But the miscarriages made me get real with God and say, ‘Okay, I’m kind of giving up a little bit. If this isn’t meant to happen, then I need to accept that and know that someday I’ll understand why.’”

Not too long after her heart-to-heart with the man upstairs, she and Mike received the news that she was pregnant. “We heard that everything was okay and I was pregnant with Jacob,” the singer reveals. “He’s just this perfect little bundle of a smiley guy.”

Jacob arrived in January and Underwood’s Cry Pretty 360 Tour kicked off on May 1. Rather than leave her boys at home, Underwood is bringing them along for the coast-to-coast trek. While she admits it’s a “big awesome mess,” she’s loving every minute of it.

“There is a thing about motherhood that makes you feel like, ‘Okay, if I can do that, I can do anything,’” she says. “And I feel like I’m a little older, a little wiser. This isn’t my first rodeo.”

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Lauren Jo Black

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Lauren Jo Black

Lauren Jo Black, a University of Central Florida graduate, has immersed herself in the world of country music for over 15 years. In 2008, she co-founded CountryMusicIsLove, eventually selling it to a major record label in 2015. Following the rebranding of the website to Sounds Like Nashville, Black served as Editor-in-Chief for two and a half years. Currently, she assumes the role of Editor-in-Chief at Country Now and oversees Country Now’s content and digital footprint. Her extensive experience also encompasses her previous role as a Country Music Expert Writer for Answers.com and her work being featured on Forbes.com. She’s been spotlighted among Country Aircheck’s Women of Influence and received the 2012 Rising Star Award from the University of Central Florida. Black also spent time in front of the camera as host of Country Now Live, which brought live music directly to fans in 2021 when the majority of concerts were halted due to the pandemic. During this time, she hosted 24 weeks of live concerts via Country Now Live on Twitch with special guests such as Lady A, Dierks Bentley, Jordan Davis, Brett Young, and Jon Pardi. Over the course of her career, she has had the privilege of conducting interviews with some of the industry’s most prominent stars, including Reba McEntire, Blake Shelton, Luke Combs, Carrie Underwood, Luke Bryan, Miranda Lambert, Lainey Wilson, and many others. Lauren Jo Black is a longtime member of the Country Music Association and the Academy of Country Music.